Monday, May 16, 2011

Oh yes, I'm yours.

So while at the review early this morning... WHILE WAITING FOR DR. TU (who's been almost half an hour late!), I borrowed Carlo's mp3 player and tried listening to his playlist. After a couple of songs, I heard this one and it ENTICED my musical ears.

I'm Yours
The Script

You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine

I listen close for I’m not smart
You wrap you thoughts in works of art
And they’re hanging on the walls of my heart

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I’m yours

And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I’m quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I’m yours

You heeled these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind

You’re the only angel in my life

The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I’m still the soldier in your eyes

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I’m yours

And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I’m quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I’m yours

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don’t fit in that much
But I’m yours

Friday, May 6, 2011


She's my mother, not my mom.
They've been my moms, but are not my mother.

“My mom is so cool, she lets me stay up all night”, “My mom asks me about how my studies are going, and she asks me about what’s happening to me in school”, “I really cried when my mom left for abroad”. 

            These statements coming from my friends really make me want to have my own mom sitting there in the couch beside me, asking me things she is really concerned about. I wanted to feel so badly how a mother cares for her daughter. And that is because I never had a chance to be with my mother.

            At times when I feel sick, I just cry myself to sleep, wishing that there would be someone to comfort me, take care of me, and love me like a real mother does. And as for my father, he wasn’t and isn’t capable of taking care of me because he has vices and is jobless. I was born with a complete family, but grew up with actually no one but my grandparents and aunts. 

          I can still remember my aunt telling me stories about how I ended up with them instead of with my own parents. She told me that when my mother knew she was carrying me in her womb, she had grave thoughts of abortion. She actually thought of not having me as her child since she wanted to go abroad to earn some living. But my father disagreed. He insisted to let me live. And when I was born in this world – I don’t know, but I really think she doesn’t want me – she thought of giving me away. I became sad because my brother who is a year older than me was left with my other grandmother (maternal side). And there comes my loving grandmother (paternal side) in action. She got me and she took care of me. But since she wasn’t able to watch me all day long because she teaches, she asked my aunt to take care of me instead.

            And this is the luckiest part of my life. I think, without my aunt’s hard hands in teaching me at home and in school, I would not be like this. I would not be this good in school. Because I was only 2 years old then when I first learned how to read. She was persistent in teaching me all those stuff in school even at my young age. That’s why without her, also with the aid of my other aunts, I won’t be able to be excellent and I won’t be able to gather all my achievements in life and in school.

            Funny, PTA meetings have been a big dilemma for me. I always ask myself how possibly I can have the decent parents to attend those kinds of meetings. And every time I go up in stage, receiving medals, certificates and awards, I always have that feeling of depression, envy and self-pity. I am depressed for not having my parents come up the stage and feel proud with me. I envy my classmates when I see their parents put the medal around their neck and take pictures showing how happy and complete their family is. I pity myself because I don’t get to have that feeling of extreme happiness that I have parents who are proud of their daughter being excellent in school. Only my grandparents and aunts are always present whenever there is an occasion like that. So, not having a complete family does not make me sad anymore, but instead, it made me realize that I should strive harder to achieve all my goals in life, to make them feel that it is a very big loss to them that they weren’t able to witness all my accomplishments, and to make them realize that I am not worthy of being deprived of a good family.

Now that I’ve grown up I believe my grandparents and my aunts are my only family. They’ve stood up for me. They gave me all, much more than a good family can give. They loved me as if I was their own, even though they each had children to watch over too. They gave me the best education I can ever get. They supported and still support me in every endeavour I undertake. They are always there. Even though I don’t get to have my own parents, I still consider myself lucky because the kind of family God has given me is so much better than those of my friends or even those of other people. I thank God for making my life beautiful and fulfilling even without parents.

Nanay, Mama Lorie, Ate Lala and Mama Lhot,
I love you and 
I will forever be grateful.

Thursday, May 5, 2011


WUZZLES are word puzzles consisting of combinations of words, letters, figures or symbols positioned to create disguised words, phrases, names, places, sayings etc. This type of puzzle is called a rebus -- a word and symbol puzzle that dates back more than 2,000 years to the Persian Empire.

The secret to solving WUZZLES word puzzles is to determine the missing "concept," such as in, on, over, under, before, after, between etc. For example, the solution to NOON GOOD is "Good afternoon," and LINE READ LINE is "Read between the lines."

Here's some and I hope you guess them all right! :)
Answers will be provided after each wuzzle.

 1. Falling Temperature

2. Two Under Par
3. Fat Chance
4. Broken Heart
5. Hot Under the Collar
6. Head in the Sand

 1. Over my Dead Body
2. Right Under the Nose

3. See Eye to Eye
4. Looking Out for Number One
5. Be-Line
6. Home is Where the Heart Is


 1. Somewhere Over the Rainbow
2. X Marks the Spot

3. Put two and two Together
4. Just Right
5. I Before E Except After C
6. High Seas

 1. Play on Words
2. Get in Shape

3. Monkey on Your Back
4. Dr. Dolittle
5. Fooling Around
6. A Kick in the Butt

 1. Backing Up
2. Sleeping at the Wheel

3. Quarterback
4. Coffee Break
5. Identical Twins
6. Count the Ways

 1. No one to Blame
2. Right between the eyes

3. Jack in the Box
4. Down Payment
5. Left Overs
6. Bedspread

 1. Cry all the way to the bank
2. The stakes are high

3. That's too bad
4. Eyes in the back of my head
5. Miniskirt
6. All in All

 1. Last Dance
2. For Crying Out Loud

3. Inground Pool
4. No TV for a Week
5. High Frequency
6. Sit Ups

 1. Foreign Policy
2. Party line

3. Covered Wagon
4. Back to the Future
5. Midwife
6. Off Sides

 1. Working Overtime
2. Do Without

3. Teddy Bear
4. Shot in the Dark
5. Eiffel Tower
6. Long Island

 1. Tulips
2. Back in five minutes

3. One Life to Live
4. First Thing in the Morning
5. Go Through the Motion
6. The Coast is Clear

 1. Better safe than sorry
2. Wheel of Fortune

3. Hard times ahead
4. Black eyed peas
5. Jumbo Jet
6. Minimize

 1. Decide
2. Spaceship

3. Multiple Choice
4. Floor Model
5. Noone Knows
6. Thunderstorm

 1. Sixth Sense
2. To Sum it Up

3. Blanket
4. Strong Undertow
5. Back Issues
6. Stretching the Truth

 1. Keeping You Out of Trouble
2. Foreign Movie

3. A Little Rough Around the Edges
4. Too Little, Too Late
5. Double Your Money Back
6. Start of Something Big

 1. One step forward, two steps back
2. Double or nothing

3. Peppermint twist
4. Forefathers
5. Enroll
6. Addresses

 1. You can count on it
2. Foot in the door

3. No can do
4. Honest to goodness
5. Way overpriced
6. Living on a shoestring

 1. Drawn to scale
2. Round of Applause

3. Splitting Hairs
4. They're all the same
5. There's no end to it
6. Different strokes for different folks

 1. Words of wisdom
2. All dressed up and no place to go

3. Split two ways
4. High chair
5. Flat tire
6. Wake up, little Suzie

1. Standing Ovation

2. Tally ho
3. Blockhead
4. Shadow of doubt
5. We drove right by it
6. Tiptoe through the tulips

So, how many have you deciphered?
Was your brain boggled? :)

Wednesday, May 4, 2011


I haven't been quite sure yet of what and where to be after I finished my first few errands in my life:

1. Review for the board exam.
2. Take the July board exam.
3. Pass the board exam.
4. Get a professional license.
5. Apply for a job.


Maybe I have an option. Maybe two or three. I dunno.

Last year, my aunt told me that we have a distant relative who works as a head at FEU Hospital. He can help me get a job there. I also told her that there's a new public hospital built near our residence in Manila and I am sure they need volunteers there, and so I can apply there too. And last night, she just told me that we have another distant relative who is the Cavite Provincial Administrator for Satellite Hospitals who can recommend me to any public hospital here in Cavite PLUS MONTHLY ALLOWANCES. WHEW! 

I know I shouldn't be worrying anything about it, about my future career. You see, that's a lot --no, that's quite enough for me. I have two or three options to juggle inside my brain. 

But I don't want to expect too much from them. WHAT IF there are no slots left? WHAT IF they decided not to prioritize me since I am a distant relative? WHAT IF I can't compose myself enough to digest everything that will happen? That'll be a HUGE change in my life, I know.

HUGE. Speaking of huge.
With everything that will be happening to me, a huge challenge is up.

Will we be together to anywhere? To everywhere?
I don't want to get my hopes up.


Monday, May 2, 2011


That's it.

Four minutes left and I have to get jumping! I woke up with blood-shot eyes. No, not of weed or anything crappy. I just stayed up all night, trying my very best of luck in this Casino Island To Go game installed in my laptop. Hahahahahahaha! And yes, after a couple of tries in Texas Hold 'Em Poker, it seemed like I had a dose of "Liquid Luck" -if you know what I'm saying.

Anyway, I still had to go to school and review for my board exam. It's Maternal Health Nursing and I really don't want to miss a thing. Ciao! :)

Here's what I looked like last night.